sorry...

ok in the end i went out ytd...haha yup with deaR deAr...it was lyke 2 plus den i managed to get her to go out wth me...we went bugis n i bought my stuffs...thanks deaR for ur company...i dun even noe if i deserve it...i guess i wont get it again...or rather i shdnt get it animore...dun deserve it...i juz haiz treat u lyke shit la...n i noe i shdnt...but...i dunno i juz take for granted that ure dere always and that yup u shd giv in to me all the time la...

aniwae...yup i am small air and seriously emotional...especially when stuff come out frm u...cos i luv u n all i wan is juz ur attention and more n more of ur love showering on me...i juz didnt expect u to suan me la...mayb i shd learn to take such stuffs as jokes bah...or mayb my mood wasnt tat good le...i dunno...i'll change...but is saying tat now abit too late? it already happen and i noe nth i sae can change aniting...haiz i dunno really dunno...im not angry wth u im juz furious abt my behaviour...n tat i feel im treating u very unfairly...everyone else suan me n dey dun get aniting frm me but u...i juz flare up la...haiz...i dunno im seriously sorry...i dunno wad else can i sae to help...n i'll seriously try to change but i guess saying tis now will nv help le...it already happen i shd juz shuddup n remove myself frm ur life...trying to control u as if im someone impt...trying to interfere in ur stuff lyke as if im ur mother...haiz i dunno...im sorry...super sorry i ruined ur mood and spoilt ur day...dun tink i can be the someone u wan me or need me to be...im juz not fit...sorry...sorry...i noe no matter how mani sorrys i say it wont change aniting...even if u forgive me verbally tis will still be stored in ur mind and yup...it'll never be removed...sorry n sorry n sorry dear...

comments?

ee er i changed a skin...and yuck i tink its lyke so plain...help . nid coments...or rather i nid a pro blogskin maker...lol...do such ppl exist...haiz i wan a nice skin man...sobx...ani one?? aniwae...i tink tis is so plain...not colourful at all..haiz...mayb i shd juz stick to my colourful skin? i dunno sia...so sian...

bored bored bored

ok holidae seriously sucks...comeon man i nid some life in tis holidae...mayb simply a job or lyke haiz juz ppl to keep me company thruout...argh!!! everyone is busy wth their stuff no one accompanies me la...its oni the beginning of the holidaes and im rotting badly...seriously tis shd stop man...haiz...

ytd hav been mapling the whole dae...haha yup im bak to mapling...nth else to do so yup train my xbowman till 3rd job bah...so far now is lyke lv 62...haiz still so far...aniwae ya i really spent the whole dae mapling...lyke frm 930am till abt 345 am..hahalol crazy huh? hehheh...deAr dEar had a hard time asking me to go for a shower...lol n the way she did it was lyke super funny la...hmmm mayb not funni...juz so yee suan lo...lol...sweet and yup hmmm cute...hahas...but was quite sian ytd la...stay at home...maple too long oso will sian sia...haiz...no one bring me out...no one wan go out wth me...argh!!!

i wanna get a job man...haiz at least i got more money to spend...haiz...ani job....but pls, no fastfood...haiz...fast food so boring...at least other stuff ba...juz get me a job so tat i can hav some income...haiz...but too bad im lazy to find....so yup im waiting for ani 好心人to find for me...lol...

ok last nite ive been singing tis song...心太软。。。and now im trying to dl it...but wad the heck dun hav la...haiz...so sad sia...ani kind soul...can help me find den send me...pls pls...sobx...todae haiz....woke up at lyke 730 to chiong maple till it patches...so yup...some more cool stuffie coming up...den ya...now patching so im lyke so bored...juz waiting for ecnirpym to wake up...den ya see how lo..mayb we can go out...haiz...im lyke rotting.....help help help.....

all super wordy posts...

haha i tink i v long nv put pictures in le...

some pictures from the istana day...haha super long ago...but nvm who cares?

haha funny face us...
tis is the main building
"please step off the grass" but oops...
haha we got a picture with nathan himself...hmm can u spot him?
ricky with the guard...=P

lol so and juz some from malacca...

me?
deAr deAr?
us?
haha shuai bahs...(the one in black)
bleah!!!

ok we were bored...
dao? lollipoppers?
deaR deAr in glasses?
me in glasses?
the spiderman key chain we bought...

MALACCA TRIP

haha yup i juz came back ytd from my malacca trip...ok travelling wth frens totally rocks...but yup its juz different feeling la...japan and malaysia...hahaz...but all in all its really great n super fun...haha...ok let me record it in detail...
but before tis let me tell ya some brief stuffie abt tis trip...ok...is a combined trip with dARCH and dLA students...so yup yup it was lyke abt 80 ppl...2 coaches...den ya deAr dEar went too...so its lyke our first trip tgt...haha...so much joy n hmm love...wahaha...the trip is from 24- 26 aug...but we had to report to school at lyke 715...so i went to dAr daR's place to stay over so tat next dae we can go to school on cab tgt...haha so tats 1 extra nite tgt...lol..so i'll get to the details...

day 1 (24 aug)
we were late for school...we reached at lyke 8...haha...but the bus was late...so yup we didnt miss the bus...otherwise we had to lyke go malacca on our own...hmmm den we went on our journey...n ya no jam in 2nd link so it was a smooth journey...as usuall on coach so we slept n talked and yup juz loved each other more and more...hmmm...sadly deres a prob with my phone or my battery...it went flat lyke so instantly...haiz...sianded...but it may b a good sign...haha can change phone...ok...den we reached some restaurant for lunch and wow all the food was lyke spicy la...deAr dEar dun take spicy stuff so she didnt really eat much...haha den we had the fish eye eating competition...n yup to my surprise DeaR dEar won...n lyke haha she eats fish eye as well lyke so amazing...haha den we continued on our journey to the resort...A FAMOSA resort...den we tai tee-ed, snapped, gym rummied...haha yup juz played wth cards lo...dere was lyke 4 rooms in 1 villa so yup we shared a villa / house with 3 other groups of people...hmm mou mou and syahirah (1 room), mira, yici and shahidah ( 1 room), layong, cheryl and pris ( 1 room) then li feng, dEar DeaR and me ( 1 room) haha so these are my housemates...haha...ok den i was happily checking out the house n normally if u on the air con u would close the door so tats wad i did with my room door n guess wad? it was lyke locked...haha den sadly we tried to break it down otherwies our stuff will b lyke locked in it...haiz...den with all my might i kicked ther door n wow in the tnd got 1 hole in the door...haiz...yup i spoilt the door...haha...but nvm dun worry no one remembered abt it and yup it was lyke left alone...haha...juz another normal hole...den we went for dinner...a buffet dinner and den went bak to lyke sleep le lo..but we didnt sleep till lyke 12 or 1 liddat la...haha...

day 2 (25 aug)
we woke up at 715 supposed to meet at 730...haha late again...nvm den we went for buffet breakfast...haha...eat alot alot...den we were seperated into groups...sobx sobx...haha i was grouped with rolling stone (nazri), mou mou, zhange le, jia ju, venberg and cecilia...den we dressed jia ju up into a gal...for some project runway ting...haha...quite surprising dEar dEar was the model for her group...n yup the usual sissy her...haha...so niang and girly...lol...ltr we went to town for lunch...lunched with jin liu, iman, riz, adam, keat ling, lifeng and dEar dEar...we had pizza...haha yup pizza hut's pizza...lol...den we went to search for an arcade n daR daR was kinda glad we found one...but we didnt get to play...cos we had to gather le...den no choice lo...den we went to the baba and nonya museum...lyke RM6 for admission...hmm it was an amazing place with lotsa cools stuff n yup a cool and different culture the peranakans have...haha...n we did hav a funny guide oso haha monotone and haha lol juz funny la...den we did our assignment dere lo...haha after tat we went shopping and night marketing...i bought some stuff for myself and yup the night market was lyke a pasarmalam...we did bargaining and stuff lo...den we went bak 'home'...we played tis pillow game before we went to bed...it was lyke some mummy daddy n baby game...haha...so stupid...haiz...we went bak n had our packeted dinner at lyke 10 plus 11 liddat...so super late...hmmden i got gastric...so had to rst cant join them swimming n stuff...haiz...sadly...aniwae...den dEaR dEaR was keeping me company...so yup we had a great nite tgt...heehee...we slept at lyke 3 plus 4...den woke up at lyke 715 when we had to gather at 730...haha yup late again...

day 3 (26 aug)
we had breakfast n reflection den we went for the last round of shopping...dAr dAr bought her hp cover and a scorpion earring...haha den we got a spiderman radiator...haha hers is black mine is red...hahas its lyke a pair tingy lo...aniwae...den we had kfc for lunch and went bak to the coach...den slept slept slept...n loved each other even more and treasured the time spent tgt lo...juz hoped time would stop as long as we're tgt...miss the time man...haha...aniwae...we saw a rainbow...haha so pretty...den yup nth much le la...reached singapore at abt 6 plus...haha were quite glad we werent caught at custom...haha=P...some gum...lol...

yup i really enjoy this trip...i loved it so so much...haha...especially under the care of my darlinG...thanks for taking care of me...u did a great job...hugs...=)

an accident witnessed...

yup i saw an accident ytd...lyke totally the whole ting...it was quite woo..scary...i was waiting for bus n it practically happened infront of me...so frightening sia...haiz...my heart was thumping so badly...haiz...abt 6-7 cars involved sia...haiz not really cars la...ok vehicles...so scary...

den after tis i went to meet daR daR..at north point...yup...den haiz to tink i saw her but she juz walked away...but nvm she was lyke urgent la...as i say...人有三急 so yup...let her relief herself bah...den we went to our favourite area...haha...ok i admit it became my favourite area...the arcade...lol...thanks for telling me abt ur church hopping tingy...i really very happy n touched taat u said tat...n yes...my left hand feels so empty without it...u said it right...

ooh...todae i had meeting den service den yup i homed with jie jie...haiz jie ar...u got tis funny insomnia tingy...better take care n get as much rest as possible la...hope all is well n tat yup tis wont happen so often le bah...

den i went to airport to fetch my mama...haha yay she is bak...haha so happy...=) ok she bought me a nice shirt...ooh...cheap cheap but nice...haha lol...

DeaR, i dunno wad happen but hope u tell me soon n update me ok? please...if its me, all the more u shd let me noe...den i can change or i can solve it for u? tell me n share ok? if u sae im so impt...yup u shd share wth me ok?

yay!! =)

oops i didnt post abt an important day...=P yup 16 aug was impt...haha all SIXTEENS will be..ani wae...yah we went out but tis time it was a perfect date...really very sweet n ooh...thanks DEar DarLing...haha...=P yes every 16 is a special day to me...but if every 16 i get smth frm u den the real 16th i'll b expecting alot wors...ok? hahas...=P...aniwae...thanks very very much...for everyting...the gift n all...hahas...it was really a wonderful time spent...with u...i really luv it...haha.s....thanks so much...cant wait for the next 16th...=P...

den on 17 i saw smth so shocking wors...deaR deAr wore it...i tot she'll nv wear it...ooh...so touched...it looked sucky actually...den yup cos i did it in a rush...haiz...nxt time i make nice nice de for u ok? sorry deardear...=)...

ok my holidae hav started...haha n im totally bored...looking forward for all the trips and camps and programmes...haiz...ok malacca had better be great...i dun wan waste my money...ok tats all le...today oso nth much...waitin for tml to come...den mama would be bak...yay!!! i miss her...sobx...ok...ciao

day at home...

ok todae i spent my whole dae at home...but sadly...i didnt clean my room...haha i was trying to understand how to use my com better...so ya...den deaR dEar popped over n yup we had a great time as usual...haha=P...den i was supposed to cook lunch but it turned out to be at lyke 5 pm...lol n the STUPID LUNCH was dredful...hope we dun die of too much salt content in our body...haiz guess i cant cook almost killed my DeaResT..=P aniwae...den we watched saw3 and yup it scared the shit out of me...so yup stupid saw...all 3 episodes were superb la...haiz it rox! haha although its scary but yup it rocks! haha so contradicting...but nvm...aniwae den she had to go...cant hav dinner wth me so yup i had to eat wth my mama n bro but i was lazy to go down so they bought dinner back for me...so im super full now n i had a good dosage of the 9pm show...its lyke the firz time im watching the whole episode...haiz wad a shame man...but it was a great show...n yup now i got nth to do juz blogging lor...

aniwae to all poly peeps out dere...other den architecture students...hahahaha...tml is my last dae of school and yup i hav no more exams at all!! im juz beginning to enjoy myself n even thought its last dae n we hav presentation but i dun seem woried at all...cos its a group ting n i guess we r great at it....so yup dun worry guys! we would do well for our presentation!!!! then we can enjoy our holidae lo...but haiz dredful primer 3 is coming...dunno how i'll die oso...haiz...nvm lets juz celebrate n not tink abt work n enjoy our hoildaes!!! yipee!!! n to those having exams jia you ok? all the way!!!! wahaha

sucky monday!!

ok this day totally sucks! although there was much smiles and laughter but i tink it sucks more....

haiz...early in the morning i was so happy that i could be sent to school but in the end cos of stupid game she beacme angry n decided to ignore me the whole morning...then we recovered but in the end i dun tink i got over it...i was juz having the " isit is cannot touch u? ok i wont..sorry" kinda mood...n it totally sucks...then when we go studio we started to chiong reflection...which really sucks cos yup chionging sux...n my mood already kns....even worse...den i tis smart alec decided to sae smth n in the end she walked off...i provoked her again...i juz suck la...cant bring a smile to u...den later she came bak to do the reflection...but was super pissed so got totally no mood to do...den she juz tried to scribble some stuff...later my irritating enemy came and guess wad he made her smile lor...i was lyke totally jealous and dun really feel lyke trying to talk to anione animore...is lyke not fail la...haiz...who am i man?

nvm den we were supposed to go ice skating...den in the end i cant skate again...co she uz dun wanna malu herself...so inthe end we watched disturbia...ok la...quite a nice show...but haiz not as good as i expected...n pls remember tat u owe me a skating outing...im not gonna ask u animore for tis outing cos i really dun wanna get rejected again...its painful...den we went to meet lydia n co.

not really we la...is actually me....but she sent me as usual...den yah...she went bak la..so stupidly...i paid for the 22.90 meal n i was juz aboutto burst into tears...is lyke totally a big bomb lah...haiz...my precious money...haiz...gone gone gone...stupid seoul garden!!!argh!! ok aniwae...tis sucks totally...den yup i ate the usuals and in the end went to khatib to meet Dear...

ok it was supposed to be happy but in the end the stupid sensative and haiz totally culculative idiotic me caused the night to be SHIT!!! haiz...nvm i dunno what the shit is happening between us cos i really dunno how to handle it le...im gonna giv up soon...but i dun wanna end tis...haiz...i dunno i really dunno....totally confused!!!!

some lil updates...

ok im here to update my blog...hahas...quite a long time huh? =P ok im totally lazy lahs...hahas...mani mani tings happened thru out tis time...hmmm most imptly is tat i went for the firz CF camp in my life...haha the leadership training camp...wow on servant leadership...is lyke hmmm reinforcement....hahaz...really really enforcing leadership in my christian walk....or rather servant leadership...ok so yup we had this few hours overnite camp in np...haha...hmm really happy tat i can go for some poly camp with jie jie even though we r not in the same poly...hahaz...quite a happy night we spent tgt...really did some catching up and crapping...of cos tgt wth the other cf-ers...haha den oso had a great time of bridging and watching bridge...i was trying to do my oc presentation but in the end watching bridge was lyke better...aha so oops i didnt do my work...den we chatted for the whole nite...jie n i were lyke totally awake thru out n yup we had a great time lahs...haha dun u agree jie? aniwae...yup i learnt quite alot n had really lots of fun with the cf-ers...hahas...great camp...aniwae...after tat DeaR dEar came to meet me n yup she sent me home den ya had some time tgt lah...guess w
oh ya...still got smth...before istana...i had a great time...i went for FOP!!! he kinda miss each other so yup meet up lo...althou i was super sleepy but seeing u is totally sweet n different lors...hahaz...its ok...smth oni we understand...ok aniwae...other than tis camp nth else le bah...

mayb my presentation? hahaz quite cool la...i talk abt colour gurads sia....lol...really miss those CG times...hais...sobx...sobx...

aha festival of praise..hahas it was great man...really felt God dere...oh so heart felt n heart warming...dere was delirious? and don moen...super super good worship...really COOL!! i wanna be a history maker!! yay! ok it was lyke super crowded at indoor stadium...n yup bus gang i saw the national stadium again...n i so totally miss it...haiz...=( ok to get back to my FOP story...really glad deaR deAr agreed to go with us...n yup thats how we founded mouster...and i also realised how much deAr deAr enjoyed herself...i guess it'll always be enjoyable when it comes to worship and praising God...yup we both love God...hahas...lets place God in the centre of our lives and yup, really try our best to live our lives the way God wants us to...lets try ok? try to change...hao ma? =X...aniwae FOP rocks!! delirious? rocks too!! haha...

shd be all le bah...i shall not talk abt the present tingy...cos yup its kinda dissappointing...tats y i dun really wanna go for the tingy on monday...haiz...see how bah...cos on one hand its end of sem 1 n i shd be happy but on the other hand...its lyke smth i hav no motivation to do so i dunno if i wanna go lor...haiz...contradicting feelings...n emotions...see how la see how...

istana visit!!

ok we went to istana open house todae..we basically consists of lydia, ricky, brenda, jie jie, jie jie's jie mei and mei mei...hahaz...



okok...we were lyke some tourists todae la...taking picture wth lyke almost everyting...hahaz...i'll upload the pics soon...so yup...we really had a great time...poor ricky had to pay $1 to get into tis place...he was lyke so pissed la...tinkin of destroying n yup ex******* the whole building...hahaz..jie n i were trying to stop him frm saying such sensative words to prevent trouble...lol...



den when it was finally our turn to hav a spot check on lyke our bodies n bags...den lydia had some problem...SHE GOT A SCISSORS IN HER BAG!! lyke wow! the giraffe de...hmmm aniwae...we saw the president...n yup haha really had fun...but tink i end here...gtg...ciao peeps...

happy bdae mama

todae is my mama birthdae...so yup happy birthdae mama...lols...

aniwae todae was quite shitty in a sense tat...i cant really get attention of anione...haiz...esp you...but nvm i tink tis is lyke part of everyting? i dunno lahs...haiz...really wanna be there for u...but where were u when i needed u the most?