sorry...

ok in the end i went out ytd...haha yup with deaR deAr...it was lyke 2 plus den i managed to get her to go out wth me...we went bugis n i bought my stuffs...thanks deaR for ur company...i dun even noe if i deserve it...i guess i wont get it again...or rather i shdnt get it animore...dun deserve it...i juz haiz treat u lyke shit la...n i noe i shdnt...but...i dunno i juz take for granted that ure dere always and that yup u shd giv in to me all the time la...

aniwae...yup i am small air and seriously emotional...especially when stuff come out frm u...cos i luv u n all i wan is juz ur attention and more n more of ur love showering on me...i juz didnt expect u to suan me la...mayb i shd learn to take such stuffs as jokes bah...or mayb my mood wasnt tat good le...i dunno...i'll change...but is saying tat now abit too late? it already happen and i noe nth i sae can change aniting...haiz i dunno really dunno...im not angry wth u im juz furious abt my behaviour...n tat i feel im treating u very unfairly...everyone else suan me n dey dun get aniting frm me but u...i juz flare up la...haiz...i dunno im seriously sorry...i dunno wad else can i sae to help...n i'll seriously try to change but i guess saying tis now will nv help le...it already happen i shd juz shuddup n remove myself frm ur life...trying to control u as if im someone impt...trying to interfere in ur stuff lyke as if im ur mother...haiz i dunno...im sorry...super sorry i ruined ur mood and spoilt ur day...dun tink i can be the someone u wan me or need me to be...im juz not fit...sorry...sorry...i noe no matter how mani sorrys i say it wont change aniting...even if u forgive me verbally tis will still be stored in ur mind and yup...it'll never be removed...sorry n sorry n sorry dear...